Monday, January 19, 2009


I didn't sleep the day away today! I have been staying up until 1 or 2 in the morning and then sleeping alot the next day. I know I was probably depression from the job loss but I didn't feel depressed really. I just didn't have any energy after staying up late. Now all I did when I stayed up was read blogs or watch tv so I wasn't worn out from cleaning or something like that.

Today was a new day! I went to bed last night after midnight but I got up at 6:45 to get Coco off to school. Scott is off on Mondays so he was home with me for awhile. He went to Mcd's for sausage biscuits and then I was so sleepy I went back to bed from 9:30 to 11am. Once I got up I turned on the Contemporary Christian station and cleaned my little heart out.

I was so proud of myself. Scott called later while I was vacuuming and he told me he was glad to hear I was up and working because he had prayed for me this morning. I think he was worried about me getting into a deep depression. I felt so bad for him. I felt bad that I had worried him.

I have been so focused on Jenna and Kelly's babies that I haven't worried about me and my problems which are nothing compared to what those girls are facing.

Tomorrow might be the day I start to tackle my scraproom. I will be sure to take before and afters! It is BAD!!!!!!

Wishing all of blessings,


Carrie said...

Hi Pam!! I am glad to hear you are having a better time with things!!

Don't be too hard on yourself!! Losing a job is a major thing and even if you are a little depressed it is perfectly natural!! You have to go thru that "mourning" process if you will.

Maybe it is just something in the air!! Because, to be honest, I have been feeling the exact same way and I know I shouldn't.

I have been having a hard time getting myself and WANTING to GO to work lately. Take today, for instance, I just had yesterday off for Martin Luther King Day (I also work for a Bank) and I called in sick today. Something I NEVER do...but I just couldn't bring myself to go in. But of course now, I am sitting here feeling guilty!! Go figure!!

Even just getting out of bed has been hard lately. I normally need to be up by 5:30am for work and for the last couple weeks I am lucky if I am crawling out of bed by 6:00am.

Work just has me SO stressed out at the moment, but I know that I should feel lucky to have my job.

Kinda crazy heh!?!?!?

So anyway, hang in there!! And just remember, you aren't alone!!

BIG hugs!! Carrie♥

Sue@CountryPleasures said...

Hey Pam, maybe this will brighten your day, you won the valentine swap giveaway, I'll be sending you your custom clipboard done up in a valentine theme on Friday, just in time to make your cards and organize! Sorry to hear you've lost your groove, it will pass in time, just keep busy! Are you working on your valentines? I love the header photo, just lovely!

Me said...

Hey Pam!
Give me a holler Wednesday if you get a chance. It's my day off and I thought maybe we could get together.


Me said...

Hey Pam!
Give me a holler Wednesday if you get a chance. It's my day off and I thought maybe we could get together.